Ew, I'm so gross

No joke.  I haven't even had the will power to weigh myself and see the damage done.  All I did in Vermont was eat and drink, which I expected, but then even since I've been back I've been eating so much crap, I can't stop.  I know I've gained back any weight I had lost before, and then some, but I'm too wuss to even see exactly how much.  I really need to get it together, and hopefully weigh myself in tomorrow morning and start over.  I suck.  I feel gross.  And my face is breaking out from all the greasy food I've been eating.  Blah.  I've just had no self control.  I'll eat something bad, and then just be like, well today was a wash, might as well keep going.  I've had pizza, burritos, fried chicken, etc. like there's no tomorrow.    Also, my Girl Scout cookies have arrived...

Feelin' Goooood!

This morning I weigh myself in at...205.2!!!! Woohooo.  I'm in such a good mood!  I've lost some weight, I just found an awesome apartment with one of my best friends, and I am leaving for Vermont in a few hours to see some of my awesome friends from college.  So stoked!

Last Day of Raw Food Mania

So I haven't had time to post all week, because I've been crazy busy.  I've kind of been wanting to move out my current apartment for various reasons for some time now, but didn't have any place to move to, and did not want to do random craigslist roommates again.  But on Monday, one of my super good friends who has been living at home with her parents informed me that she wanted to move out and be roommates with me!  So we've been running all over Boston looking at apartments and getting the run around from realtors, but tonight we finally found the place of our dreams!  It's sooo cute! And it has a jacuzzi tub, we're in love!  I'm sooo excited, and cannot wait until March 1st!

Other than that, I have just been eating raw fruits, vegetables, and nuts all week.  Today was my last day, and I think overall the raw food diet was a success.  Now I just have to make sure I don't undo all my hard work this weekend when I am in Vermont... I know I am going to be eating stuff that is way unhealthy, but I guess my only goal is to try to make healthy choices when possible?  I have no idea how this is going to go.  I am going to weigh myself tomorrow morning for a final tally of weight I lost while eating all raw foods, and also so I can see the damage done while I am in Vermont, ugh.

I Just Love Cookies :(

Ugh, I cracked today.  I was walking around Whole Foods, picking out some fresh veggies, when there they were....a sample bowl of their store brand oreos.  I just love cookies too much, I couldn't resist.  So I ate one.  Blah, oh well.  Besides that I stuck to all raw foods.  I've been hitting the avocados pretty hard, because they are delicious and actually filling....yum.

I should mention that although I did slip, I was able to resist the bowl of Valentine's Day candies/chocolates that one of my evil coworkers put out in close proximity to my desk.  So maybe that victory cancels out my oreo cookie fail?  Hmmm...

It's been...one week!

I haven't eaten anything non-raw for a week!!  I feel really great, seriously.  I often get this pain in my gut, I think from what I eat, but I haven't had that at all in the past week.  So that's good!  I've even gone to the gym 3 days in a row...I am on a roll!

I'm a bit nervous about my upcoming trip up to Vermont.  Mostly, I'm afraid my hard work will get undone and I'll end up back where I started.  But I think it will be impossible not to drink and eat yummy take out with everyone else.  I guess this will be my first major test of self control...eek!

I lost 4 lbs!

I'm feeling really good about losing 4 pounds!  Only 70 more to go until I'm a skinny sexy bitch, haha.

I even went to the gym last night and rode the bike for a half hour.  I wish I could say I enjoyed it, but I really dislike going to the gym.  The working out itself part isn't what I dislike, I know I just have to get used to that and get more motivated, it's the gym vibe itself I loathe.  Plus, Planet Fitness is not the judgement free zone they claim to be.  I thought it would be pretty empty and quiet since I went at 7pm on a Friday night.  I was wrong,  there were tons of meat heads and bro dudes pumping iron and loitering by the weights, ugh.  I suppose they're just as entitled as I am to uber cheap membership fees, I just wish there had been more frumpy pudgy girls around for me to commiserate with I guess or something.  Maybe I'm just being overly self-conscious.

I also bought a Groupon to take a sushi making class sometime.  I'm so obsessed with Groupons, and I think this will be a good way for me to learn how to make a relatively healthy dish on my own!  Can't wait!

Cookies! Cookies! Everywhere!

Ok, so seriously, today I was bombarded with cookies.  And cookies are my pretty much my Achilles Heel.  At work there were cookies and brownies in the kitchen.  My cube neighbor was also selling Girl Scout cookies on behalf of his daughter.  And when I got home, my roommate had received this Cookie Basket concoction (think edible arrangements on crack) as a congratulations for a promotion.  I'm not kidding, it was like the Cookie Monster was watching me and thinking of cruel jokes to taunt me with.  Ok, just in case someone out there someday decides to read this and thinks I'm kidding about the Cookie Arrangement sitting on my counter when I got home, here is proof:

Somehow, I got through the onslaught of cookies and stuck to my raw foods diet.  Even when my roommate offered me a cookie and then proceeded to eat one himself off of a stick in front of me....gah!

I know it's only been three days, but I am still kind of proud of myself for resisting temptation and sticking to my goal of eating only raw food, in spite of my love for cookies.

Ok, I confess, I ended up buying three boxes of the Caramel Delights Girl Scout cookies from my cube neighbor.  But I figured my order wouldn't come in for a few weeks, and it was to support a good cause!  And I love those cookies.  I'll just have to practice some serious portion and self control when they arrive.